You've though about leaving for years, you just didn't know how. You ponder and ponder but the answers just don't come to you. Let me lend you a few suggestions or things you might consider.
Write a letter of explanation, why it didn't work and that your not coming back.
Take a trip but make sure it's only a one way ticket.
Take the dog and get in your car and just drive in on direction~away!
Tell him you've gone to get milk.
Trade in the car he bought you for your birthday and register the new one in another country!
Leave a letter on his pillow, signed, by your new man.
Explain that you love him and that's why it's over.
Make a nice candlelit dinner, tell him your going to slip into something more comfortable and slip out the window.
Leave a letter on the bed telling him all the good qualities he has, how great a person he is and that he will find someone to love him for his qualities.
Tell him you have enjoyed the years you've had together, the roads you've traveled and this is where your journey begins.
Tidy up the house, leave fresh flowers on his pillow, leave his favorite dinner in the oven with the timer set to go off when he walks in and then leave!
Thank him for all that he has done for you, for helping you become the person that you are today, then slam the door and leave!
Usually the response to this prompt is more or less wise-ass, sometimes angry or cruel, and there's a little of those here, but the overwhelming impression you leave the reader (and it's rare with this prompt) is of ambivalence and sadness at leaving that lover. That is to say, many of these methods, especially toward the end, seem to shout out: 'Ambivalent, I feel two ways!'
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